three AM

since you
   disappeared
   left and
   slept                      I fell
                                out of the
                                brocolli bush and
                         slit my wrist on the way
                                     down.
--
some say, (some say), you pushed me but
we know,
              i was never a healthy eater
              to begin with.

and when you left me I lost
     (the wings I got from my dear friend)
happiness, he told me
     (he told me) that I was no good
     (to fly, no condition to sing) he said

you hurt me once before; you hurt me
     once before and I don't
   need you.
--
since you
   left                         my shoulder blades have
                                 set their minds on
                                 mutiny and

                                     the right side of
                                     me wants to hit you if
                                     you ever came back into
                                     view          he says

you hurt me once before; you hurt me
     once before and
you'd do it again if you had the chance
                  
                 but I know;
I know you
wouldn't hurt me if you had the
     choice.

     the angel on my left
     side wants to forgive
     you          he says

you used to hold me once before; you held me
       once before and

             I know;
I know if you
had the choice, you'd
     do it again.
--
hey wonderwall,
     this was made for me and you.
     the words are mine and the
voice is yours so
     maybe if you sung to me in french,
I'd bleed you a lullaby so that maybe
     (this one time)
     you'd actually wake
     up.
-
but you said
(you said) no, because
I wouldn't understand, but

sometimes, (I'd tell you) sometimes

the things we don't understand are
         the things we need to
                   hear;

-
maybe
     (maybe), if you sung to me in
french, maybe
     i'd sing along.
--
                       I stared into the
                dark corners of my bedroom
                   searching for sanity
                         because:
                      (he told me)

he told me,

he'd be there (waiting)
          for me (to call)
                     (to call his name) but

I went blind,
                        because;

even darkness can be a light
         in the darkest of places.
--
hello muse,
     it seems that my words decided to
follow you down the rabbit hole,
     and I can't find the DRINK ME bottle
                          anywhere;
if you could please return them,
        MY NEW ADDRESS is
              under your watch so you don't
(so you don't) forget to
              check it.

if you could please hurry up,
     I WOULD BE GRATEFUL;
                          BECAUSE:

all the words I have left have already
            been written into
              the saddest
                   songs.